6 Days To Surgery. How I See Beauty (Part 1)

I work in radio.  I posted a few days ago that sometimes I delete pictures of myself from my radio stations Facebook page.  Why do I do that?  Why am I embarrassed of my weight?  My answer is because not all people see beauty the way I do, and I live right SMACK DAB in the middle of the media!  I fight the media.  I'm still working through that.

How I see beauty:
In all honesty I have really struggled in my lifetime with feeling beautiful.  I have spent years educating myself on how women think, how men think, how society thinks, how media influences, etc.  I have huge compassion for young (and old) women trying to find their beauty in this warped society.  Through my studies, I feel like I have a really good hold on what beauty is.  I believe that we are surrounded by lies.  The media, TV, radio, commercials, magazines, etc. lie to us about what beauty is.  We, as a society, men and women, are believing it.  Women are being disrespected and men are being hated-on because of their disrespect.  In turn, men and women are disrespecting each other.  Many women are using sex for power, and some (maybe many) men think sex is all women are good for.  (Disclaimer:  Many, not all!)  Many women, and even young girls, are thinking that if they can't be "sexy" they are worthless.  We are losing what beauty is.  I think this is a huge problem in society.  We are being taught by media.  And media lies.  Many women are struggling to find their beauty.  Many men are struggling to SEE real beauty.

What do I think?  I think women are BEAUTIFUL!!!  And God created us that way!!  We are soft, sensitive, caring, nurturing, sentimental, emotional, passionate, compassionate, all by nature.  These are STRENGTHS, and are all things that the world is in desperate need of!!  And we are physically beautiful too!!

Yes, I am overweight.  But, I KNOW I am beautiful.  I feel beautiful.  God has impacted my heart and soul on the depth and magnificence of how he created women to be beautiful and how he meant it to be.  The reason I am having this surgery is to take care of my beauty. 

Every single woman on this earth is putting beauty into the world no matter what they look like physically.  Through love, compassion, tenderness, smiles.  THAT is beauty!

I truly believe that.  But it seems "the world" disagrees.

(to be continued...)