2 Days Until Surgery. Adapting.

Since I got my news yesterday (see previous post) I have spoken to several people about the Bypass Surgery.  They are PUMPED for me.  This surgery works faster and you lose more weight, BUT it IS more invasive and the healing time IS longer.

I have been prepping for the Sleeve for 2 years.  This change was thrown at me 3 days before the surgery, with 5 minutes to make the decision.  It crossed my mind to reschedule so I could think more about this, but I am on my 13th day of fasting.  Would I really want to start this all over again?  It did cross my mind!

I did struggled through the thought of the Bypass last night.  It is not what I had prepped for, but when it comes right down to it, this is between me and God.  Through this blog I am letting you look into the window of this journey, but really in the end it's between me and the Big Guy.  Him and I had some one-on-one last night.  He knows my heart, my body, my everything, and so I trust Him. I have committed this to Him from the start and I will continue to do so.

I have prayed about losing weight for a long loooooong time now.  I have actually been praying to weigh a certain amount (a specific number, a healthy number).  I've been praying and thanking God that I will weigh X amount.  This is really happening and I thank God.  Being accepted by MB Health feels like a miracle because I barely met the requirements, but I am SO grateful for this opportunity. 

I don't know why these changes came so suddenly last minute, but He has got this.  I feel totally at peace today.  Today I am SO excited as to what my future holds.

I know there are some of you reading this that are opposed to the surgery and that's OK.  You are entitled to your opinion.  I am not offended. I get why some would be concerned.

To those that have been supportive and completely understand, and ALSO to those that don't quite get it yet have gone above and beyond to support me, THANK YOU so much for all the prayers and encouragement!!

Day 13 of the fast:  The fast got easier after 5 days.  It's been pretty breezy since then.  I am starting to think that one of the reasons they want us to fast that long (other than surgery prep and detox) is to prepare us mentally for diet change.  The thing that I was addicted to (and I say "was" because that is my hope) has been taken away from me (food).  Turns out I can live a pretty happy life without food.  After surgery Monday I will have to learn to adapt to tiny bits of food being brought back into my body.  I'm pumped.